Unperceived Complexity

How could you let me leave
with my little foot hanging out
Knowing that one day I’ll grow up
to stare at this symmetrical perfection

How could you let me
pursue my curiousity
knowing that there would be
this vicious cycle
that robs me of myself

No, you didn’t know
How could you know?
My mind is my own and noone else’s

Yet I still lament about
that innocence
that peace
Those little treasures I could not recognise

I wish I knew that day
That things
could be different

Did you know
that you gave too much space for me?
I knew
from the way you look at me

You let me be myself too much
Consoling my guilt with your touch

But now you are no more
And I’m alone with my guilt